Forgiveness

Anybody ever have regrets? You know like wishing you could take back something you did, or said. I try to go through life not having one single regret. I try to accepts my faults, and always remind myself that my "mess ups" are what make me who I am. I can forgive someone if they lie, if they steal from me, even if they "cheat on me". But their is one thing i wont tolerate. And that is someone attacking my character, and picks out my flaws, and my mistakes and then try to hold them against me. I will admit I am not a saint. And I mess up every day. but to have someone point it out, and ridicule me for my mistake is a hurt that i will never get over. Its even worse when your own family doesnt let you live your mistake down. When everytime you see that person, they remind you of how bad of a person you are. Man it hurts even more when that person is your parent. Whom you have disappointed so much, it seems as though the apologies, and sucking up will never make them change their mind. When the conversations you have with them are always hi, how was your day? call me before you go to sleep? and thats all. When you see them you wana embrace them, and tell them you love them, but all you get is a cold shoulder in return. At first Iwas very hurt, and just wanted forgiveness, but now I am angry because its time to FORGIVE and FORGET. Understand that I am NOT perfect, and I do make mistakes, and hope that LOVE can conquer all, and we can get past this. But who knows? Ill just keep praying to mend the relatioinship we had. And love you even harder.