love you in slow motion--Karina Pasian

i know that you've been calling me

and im happy that we met

dont think that im not interested

im just playing hard to get



so much about this crazy game they call love

that im trying to understand

so could you be my bestfriend

before you call yourself my man



why cant i love you in slow motion

take my time

take away the pressure on my mind

really get to know you

in rewind

wana love you in slow motion

why cant i?



you seem to know just want you want

and i like your confidence

somethings a girl should never rush

cause if you do you hurt yourself



so much about this crazy game they call love

im still trying to understand

so would you be my bestfried

before you call yourself

my man



why cant i love you in slow motion

take my time

take away the pressure on my mind

really get to know you in rewind

i wana love you in slow motion



why can't i?

im too young for tears in the night

and its to soon for things to be right

dont wana mess with your pride

the questions not when but why

FINALS

I can honestly say this is when i begin to hate school the most. When it comes down to the finals, and the tests, and the papers i have to finish. That somehow happen to be due all on the same day. I guess it doesnt help that i only have class two days out of the week, but geez i am so ready to be done with this. I am a junior and i know i need to just suck it up but i cant do it without complaining. Gosh mam, I just want it to be over, I want to graduate so that i am able to get into my career, and just do something i love. but i know education is what i need. So i will just comlain now, and rejoice in the end. UGGGGHHHHH FINALS....

Victim of abuse

I wish she would understand that she can do so much better, that she realizes he doesnt love her if he puts his hands on her. I wish she would understand that he is not being faithful, and that what she thinks is hers, is really the worlds. I wish she would understand the lies that he tells her and the bullshit he feeds. Why wont she understand? Is it love that will make you stay in a relationship when you have to come to school and work with black eyes? Is it love to have a man make you go thru things you cant take back, babies he refuses u to keep? Nah thats not love. Hell she will admit that she doesnt love him, so then why stay? Is it out of fear? Then i would make sure i have one hell of a right hook, and a kick to make his eyes water. Then go to the priesent and make it known that I dont want to be bothered. But Why cant she see that? Why is she still holding on to something thats physically, emotionally, and mentally killing her? I dont know why. I know that i am worth so much more, but God i dont know how to start. I am a victim of abuse, and until i face the truth, I shall and will continue to be the victim of abuse.

I am you and you are me and we are love--by Timothy Gladden

A poem my friend wrote: Its one of my favorites enjoy....


I am you…You are me…And we are Love…I gaze in the hazel of your eyes…The beauty makes mine flow cries,You are what god has made you to be…I see to the to the meat of my epiphany,The Daughter of my Father, My moon… my sun you’ve become,I share air in this Jungle of a life before my life comes undone,I protect every hair before I care for my beating heart inside,No lie though I try to will, to continue on to fly,Farwell to the aftermath of the emotions left on the Table…I loved once before…I am still willing still able…My life reads non-fiction no tall tales No fables…My heart has been exonerated my mind has been enabled…So for you the Son of My mother…Its true this moment my Brother…That I am you and you are me…Happiness we seek…Love I see,I lay down personal interest to enhance this feeling of knowing you…I bleed to what I believe on knees praying it to be true…All the life lessons Ive learned I watched, fallen short and understand,I wasn’t meant to know future of my life, but to live the best I can,So the Kin of my bloodline, my cousin to my proud heritage,I feel so I want…have hope… so you can know it is,Not in present form made from the sands of this Land…You are always with me side by side…hand in Hand…What my soul has always desired…to intern emotions thus hate to retire,For you are me…thus I am you…My first home…you are my birthplace,The giver of my life so to the explanation…I step n’ retrace…To be learned as you taught me… Instructed as a father should hope,Your Rod vacated to my flesh…the love from it helped me cope,I was blessed to have eyes so with them the less fortunate I admire,Though life has dealt a crushing blow…they resolve passion with fire,That is why…you are me and I am you for we…are children of him…A Hustler in the struggle I respect…lest the great dream fall dim,I can perceive what you feel though your hearts not in my chest…You are my Lover…you are my friend…you have put doubts to rest,For she is near is my feeling…My complimentary half…my blessing…A ring, A vow, anticipate the best...then proceed to start dressing,Bring your hopes bring you dreams….We will have Love over finer things…Grab your desires, move you heart…We equal forever Nows equals the Start…I have found happiness through the spirits of my children…Though never have I bore any…I am hooked on the feeling,I engage Joy in the eyes of my nephew, peace with the soul of my niece,I am them…they are me…So Love is on the increase,Thus my spirit below is rich with emotion…for I was designed from above,As I am…though I am you…you are me…and we are LOVE!!!

Accusations

you know the saying when you ACCUSE you make and ASS out of you? Well please believe that statement is more truthful then one would ever know. Its sad when a someone that doesnt like you accuses you of something, but its even sadder when its your friend accusing you. So im watchin the hills, and Audrina has accused her friend Lauren of sleeping with her boyfriend. im sorry but that has to be the most RIDICULOUS thing i have ever heard. What kind of friend would even question that to another? Makes me think Audrina never trusted her in the beginning. And to me thats not a friendship worth keeping if someone is not going to trust you, or even stand up to you with bullshit like that. Maybe thats just me, however i know if it was me i would be pissed, and not so quick to befriend that person, thats hurtful and down right wrong. So comment...and tell me what you think...shoudl Lauren forgive Audrina??? Or move on from her...

Taking a stand

I have made a decision. I will no longer let "Others" determine how i will live my life. As some of you may know i got in a BIG fight with one of my closest friends and we have decided we were not going to remain friends anymore! I was a little upset but then i realized that it was all worth it. I will not lower my standards to " chase after you and be your friend" God really spoke to me this entire week and i am going to share with you what has been said. I can no longer continue to play "games" with people that are not trying to serve the God i serve. I am THROUGH living like a heathen, and doing things i know a "child of God should not be doing" Some of us at Liberty came from a home where we know about God. Then we come to school and make excuses like" man...i been in church my whole life...and no one or anything can force religion on me" Although this is true...its STUPID. God should be the ultimate head of your life. No BOY or GIRL, no matter what the relationship is should come between that. God said that I am his! and i am truly standing on that word! Romans 12:2 says to not be of this world but to be transformed by the renewing of your mind to prove what is good acceptable and perfect will of God. This is my favorite scripture and it has a lot of truth in it. Just because we are in this world, does not mean we have to be of it. Its about time that i start being of this world and not in it. I have CHANGED...and though i know it will not be overnight, i am striving to be what God wants me to be. He has a plan for my life and i know it is about to come to pass. Liberty is not the school that i have my heart set on, but while being here i have learned that God and only God will get the glory out of anything i do! So i am DONE. I am done feeling like i have no one in my corner because i got GOD; i am done acting like my mama raised a "heathen" because GOD said that i am more than a conquerer; And i am praying for those of you that read this. I hope you decide to take a stand like i did. "what is it worth to gain the whole world, and lose your soul?'' So forgive me if i come back to school and do act a different way. I am focusing on GOD and only GOD! No longer does your opinion about me matters...because i am here on this earth and at Liberty to do one thing and that is please GOD. I will continue to love, and i will love harder, and i will continue to keep yall in prayer, just as i hope you do for me.

Every once in awhile i want to give yall a taste of what i been feeling, so i decide to pick a song thats out and sing it. And today is Keri Hilsons turn. her kind of new single Energy, has been a hit, and i have to sing it, only because im at that point in my life, and relationship where this LOVE is taking all of my ENERGY!!! So i was singing it to get some release, nothing really to do much over, just sharing my feelings.